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I don’t know if I should ask I’ve been pondering how we got here. My past passing through my eyes Trying to piece back the memories. When I asked how you felt, you said I already knew But I wish you had told me instead. When I said it’s you I want, you said I am not sure When I asked why you pushing me away, you said it’s for my own good. When will you realize it’s you I love How can you be so blind . When I asked you to leave, I wanted you to stay Now am back to where it all began. Realizing I have not lost what I thought I had How can you lose something you never had?
Today the clouds turned a shade of grey. The lighting struck, thunder bellowed. And the summoned rain came down hard .
My heart is heavy. My eyes are tired. My breath is short. My throat is tight. My chest is on fire. But. My lips form a perfect smile. ©Susann .
Why does it have to be hard.If it was meant to be then why is it not working out.If it’s written then where are the signsIf it’s supposed to be then why is it unbearable.If everything happens for a reason then when.When is it going to be right.When is it going to be easy.When is it going to be bearable.©Susann
Longing for a day I’ll be free Like pipit in the wild And see more beauty ©Susann
I get goosies when I think about you You’ve been there for me Since day one How would I have been happier? You give me strength Love and an understanding You don’t judge me For my shortcomings You hold me when I want to fall You hug me tighter when I need it the most Being awake now is worth it Because I am with my best friend You are my 3am thought ©susann
That moment When you are holding your breath Trying hard not to blink Because your world will fall apart The second you do. ©susann
The whispers… She says it’s going to get better It’s going to end It’s just a voice She sees images that seem real She dreams of total darkness She tell herself it’s paranoia She weeps She is okay when they ask She hear screams She sees dying souls She knows it is coming.
She is so rare but When she visits I get freed She makes me let go of my guard and let me Feel things that I hide from the world Her whispers calm my demons As she hugs me close Reassuring it’s going to be okay And that she’ll be here until it’s over My best friend and only true friend The only one who knows how deep am cut The only one who never leaves The only one who has seen my broken spirit And still says it’s going to be okay and Someday it will be quiet and I Will find peace. ©susann
It hurts with every breath My pain is hidden from people I love I don’t want to be a burden I say I want to be liberated I am constantly in my head I am not strong enough I have been thinking A stranger with no conflict of interest A stranger to liberate my body This body that doesn’t belong to me.
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