My dear darling
I have not forsaken you
This is not abandonment
It hurts to be away from you
Memories overwhelm me
Your essence engulf me
When I play your favorite song
This time we shared is sacred
Forever and always
My heart will be grateful
I think it’s time
Said Body to Mind
It’s my turn to take care of you
But how will Susan function?
The mindful Mind asked
She’s tired already
Replied the Body
It’s her time to rest
Are you sure this is a good idea?
The concerned Mind asked
Yes, I know it’s a great idea
Look at her- She’s been insentient
It’s time she get released
I will take care of you both
The protective Body answered
“Hey guys, what’s up?
Why are my legs and hands numb?
Why can’t I construct a meaningful sentence?
Are you two fighting again?”
Pss, Body, should I answer her?
No, she’s a smart one, replied Body
“Hello, can you guys hear me?
I took you for a walk
I bought your favorite food
I didn’t forget to hydrate
Why aren’t you responding?
Oh wait, I feel sickly
My tummy is acting up
My eyes are tired
I can feel a migraine coming
Let me freshen up and turn in
You guys must be tired
I understand
Thank you for always taking care of me.”
Goodnight beautiful
Said body and Mind
This weather
Stirs up memories
How I miss the sun on my skin
The white sand and breeze
The quiet serene atmosphere
The care free attitude
And the long walks along the shore
I am getting used to
Sitting on the patio simply relaxing
Listening to reggae while sipping wine
Walking along the beach
Feeling the ocean with my feet
Caressing the white sand
Listening to the sound of the crashing waves
Appreciating the ambience, silence and
Being at peace with my mind
As I wet my pillow
Grey clouds
Hangs over my heart
Unrelenting
Breaking my spirit
Shattered and crushed
Unceasing anxiety
With an unstable heartbeat
Incapable of shaking this paralysis
Haunted and petrified
A walking open wound
How can you be this unwise?
Do you think you can conquer me?
A soldier with no integrity
One more burn
One more case
One more cut
‘No one will see my weaknesses’
You are a fool
They did not stand a chance
Arrogance
Don’t you know?
Ego is my adored servant
A hero they will not praise
The truth, we know
It could have been different
But you chose Silence
Nothing could have prepared me for this
My excitement was unmatched
I did not expect to lose so soon
I thought I did my best
But my best wasn’t your best
-Susann
Carry on,
Don’t worry about unfamiliar things
Sometimes it is difficult to notice
The night sky dancing with the stars
One drink turning into a stupor
Don’t let yourself lose control
Pay attention to your rhythm
The fires in your soul
The flower fields in your mind
The strength in your spirit
It will guide you back home
Beautiful one
Who are you when you are high on life?
-Susann
“I am going to protect you”
You promised.
But how will you?
When you are tearing me down?
You keep blooming.
Crashing into me.
While I am fading.
How could you take so much?
●Susann
